Inspired by Vitvan of the SNO
If the following seems esoteric it is due to my level of understanding:
Personality is our bent early learned, and learned throughout our days of little awareness. Dealing with one's own personality may come to seem a bit warlike. In that dealing with it helps one to know that there is a stronger more real you within. Even so we must develop ourselves within and through our personality of today.
In the beginning of our individuation process it is difficult to see our personality or even to look toward it. Some may never do so. Even the most aware of us may need more than a little help. Still the personality is a learned happening and is transitory. It is often a reflection of mostly unconscious experience. Our being is stronger; is stronger than personality You may even come to see that which seemed to be strong is much like a bit froth. Froth or no, some of it is likely to stay with you for life as a helpful old friend.
We say to be true to yourself by acting to fulfill that self. We learn more of the nature of actually doing. We learn that a doing is neither a happening nor an unconscious reaction. As you come to fulfill that state at which you are now conscious, you can expand your consciousness beyond that state. You can make your personality truer to the more real you.
None of the process is really easy. The process of individuation is natural but often takes some hard work. It is easy, however, to attend to the rather good in one's self while seeing nearly none of the somewhat bad. We can continue to embrace the false, wrong, and distorted in our lives without being aware of doing so. Nature seems to help one to preserve oneself and then helps one to be productive before it helps us to develop consciousness of our being. This, in our growing awareness, can cause some grief and disappointment. We often seem to need others or a school to teach us that there is a purification process which helps us in our growing awareness and consciousness.
We have common urges to love, sex, and transitory connections. The urges are strong. They create desire and that desire leads us to thought.
Not all bad. There are kinds of desire and qualities of desire. Desires of many kinds and qualities so color our vision that we lose sight of our developing consciousness of being. Do not be very concerned. Each experience is an opportunity for learning. In the state of awareness you have gained you will regain your vision of your developmental process.
There is some sense to be found in this dreamlike contemplation. Congratulations for reading it.
by Richard Sheehan